Second Journey - Andy the Lion Heart

The start of my second journey was a bit of an arse-kicking. Once the Aya had kicked in I started to see swirling colours and strange faces. I had asked the Shaman the day before who they were and he said they were people from other dimensions. The first time this happened it made me feel dizzy and my head hurt and I tolerated it, but this time each time my head felt it was going to burst, I opened my eyes and it went away only to return again when I closed my eyes. After doing this a few times a voice said 'You are pathetic!' when I had my eyes closed. So I opened them and the voice said it again and it was not pleased. 'You are pathetic, what do you want? To write your own script? Do you want to choose what you see? Do you want a list of Ayahuasca journeys you can choose from? Who the hell do you think you are? I was being kicked under my back and it bloody hurt! I sat up and lit a cigarette feeling very small and humble, thinking 'What was that for?' I knew damn well what it was for, it was for being a little shit

The princess came and told me to look for that inner strength, the one we women have deep down inside. She had said this before to me but she came and said it again. I asked what I should do about the people who had made my life a misery for the past year, how do I handle it I asked. My grandfather only has one sister left and she is approaching 90 years old now and I saw her. Yet it was her husband who had passed away two years ago who came and told me that if it was hurting me to walk away from it, those who have done wrong will surely get their just deserts he said

A man came who I did not know, and we were standing outside a grey house which looked like a mill. He said he once lived there and that he was a painter. I thought maybe he was one of my ancestors. He said someone had followed him to Herefordshire.  My sister lives there so perhaps it is her. I asked him who he was but he just said what he had to say ignoring my questions and pointing at the house, then he disappeared

When people come to you when you are on an Aya journey you tend to ask questions but don't always receive a reply. It's more about listening than speaking and sometimes you just listen because you know that is what you have to do. I have stood before gigantic Shamans and just knew I had to shut up and listen!

A jaguar came into the cabana, walked all the way around and then disappeared. I don't know where he went. I went outside and one of the men was staring at the fire, he was putting his hands into it and withdrawing them very slowly, like he was seeing how long he could hold each one there before it felt too hot. I was sitting outside watching him for a while and was aware that out in the grass, animals were watching him too. Lots of them. I knew they were there

I went to sit on a chair outside, and was sitting there very quietly when I heard a low cat-like growl. I froze and my heart started thumping. I thought maybe it was the jaguar that had come back, and I had just heard the noise in my head. Then it happened again, and by this time it seemed really close to where I was sitting. I started to get a bit nervous. I remembered that Oswaldo had told us a day or two earlier the difference between the noise of a puma and the noise of a jaguar. This was neither. Then there was an almighty roar and I shot off my chair and scarpered to my mat. It turned out it was my friend who was at one of the back fences roaring his heart out! The same friend who had been playing with the fire with the animals watching him

A porcupine decided to come and visit us that night, he was wandering around outside the toilets, scaring anyone who thought he wasn't real

Once again, a few of us sat round the fire and just enjoyed each others company without saying much, until we all eventually came back into The Matrix