1st Journey - Who Is The Greatest Deceiver?

My first journey was all about deception. I got the distinct message that all around me was falseness and deception. I was given a lot of questions ....

Was someone there for the right reasons or were they there out of fear of saying 'No' ...

Was someone there because they thought they were someone and wanted to show off their ego ....

Was someone there to learn about the plant or were they there to sample what they thought was a drug they hadn't tried ...

Was someone just tolerating others to look 'nice' whereas in other circumstances they would not give them the time of day ....

Was someone just telling others what they wanted to hear instead of the truth ...

Was someone hoping for something to happen to them because they thought that because they drank Ayahuasca they were some form of super hero ...

Was someone trying to deceive the others in the group for their own gain ...

Were there liars and cheats among us ....

And me, was I there because I wanted to learn more or because I thought I too was a super hero?

A demon appeared walking down the steps of a pyramid. The steps were on the outside, he was wearing a crown. He stabbed me through the heart with a dagger saying "Who is the greatest deceiver?" It hurt a bit I can tell you

After he had decided to hurt me, I again kept hearing statements. I was told about how vanity can make us look ugly. How greed can make us look stupid, how selfishness can make us look hideous and how ego can make us look a fool.

I was also told a few of my own faults as well and I took a long look at myself

I was told we cannot be involved in any deception to be free, we have to be as genuine as we can and be as honest as we can. We should not deceive ourselves and others. We should not live our lives to look good to others, but for ourselves

I saw two of my friends in rooms full of mirrors and they were looking at themselves. I was told that you do not just look at what is in front of your face, but rather what is beyond that, and you must not try to see something that is not there.

I saw a lady of our group smiling in a cameo on the front of a jewelled box. The box opened and a jewelled crown came floating upwards out of it. The crown shattered into tiny pieces and was destroyed

We should have the courage to drink the Ayahuasca without wanting all our expectations to be met. We cannot write the script, we cannot write our own journey, we cannot tell the plant what we want, but rather accept the gifts she gives us. Accept what we see on our journeys for our own knowledge and healing

The lesson I learned was that we cannot have everything we want, but if we go to the plant with an open heart she will give us what we need, not what we demand of her

I thought Ayahuasca had taught me all I needed to know ..... Wrong!

The upheaval I experienced in the weeks in the run up to this trip happened to show me deception, when I got there I saw deception and in my journey the demon of deception showed himself as the ruler over me. He appeared to show me the hurt deception causes

I was told by a beautiful lady that our tribe is all right as long as we are prepared to learn and not decide for ourselves what is the beginning or the end. She said we are not the ones to decide. She said this as she waved at me before she disappeared, smiling

I know nothing, I am nothing and she showed me I know nothing. I deceived myself into thinking I was some sort of super hero and I got my arse kicked ....

However, once that was over I saw a lady who I call 'Princess' She gave me a pink rose and reminded me that I knew where it was from. She asked me to give it to her husband who was journeying close by. I said I couldn't at that moment as he was lying down on a journey but she insisted. I said I was a bit dubious to go over to him as I may frighten him, so she said I had to promise to give it to him when he awoke. I said I would, and I did.